I look forward to “downloading” on Friday evenings…Just saying Ahhh that it is the end of the work week and looking forward to going to Worship services and just enjoying God’s Goodness, family friends, etc over the weekend.  Because the accident took place on a Friday. Fridays will never be the same.  This past Friday night, I dreamed that Justin was alive but younger…maybe 6 or 7.  He fell into a body of water.  I wasn’t able to reach him but I got someone else to help him.  He was rescued and he was fine. I hugged him and  was so happy that he was OK. 

Although I wish that the outcome were true, I am so thankful for the quality of our relationship as mother and son.  I am so thankful for his mindset at the time that this occurred. He was focused on a positive, proactive life and focused on God.  The song says, I don’t know why Jesus loves, I don’t know why he cares, I don’t know why he sacrificed his life. Oh! but I’m glad so glad he did.  I don’t know why things happened the way that they did. Oh! but I’m glad for the quality of the relationship, for the mindset, for the positive impact of his life and his death.  My human mind doesn’t understand it all but I d o understand the importance of  “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not to thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct thy path. Proverbs 3:5, 6